Why are we so different

Every decision to be made requires a battle to be fought.
When one wins, the other will have to lose.
Or choose an in between which is neither here nor there.

I cant buy something “just because”
I cant do something “just because”
There is zero tolerance for frivolosity
I dont know if i can make it “clutter-free” with all the legacy stuff we have

I am so tired thinking of practical reasons to explain my wants.
Sometimes I just cant.
I am speechless when i have to think of valid reasons to refute your practical ones.
Sometimes I just cant.
At times I feel like declaring
Can I please just have this xxx cm by xxxcm
Let me do whatever I want with it
You can take the rest and do your practical thing
Although its not like what I want is totally stupid and mindless.

We are so different it rips me apart at times like this.
Im screaming and strangled from the inside
Its forcing the tears out of my eyes.