Finally have time to blog again
The past few months had been madness – trying to fit in the new working environment, keeping up to speed, learning the daily stuff, monthly tasks and quarterly deliverables. And all i can say is – its crazy tiring.
There i was thinking that life would be easier after audit.
The only pro i can think of in comparison is that i rarely need to work past midnight. But when i do, its NONSTOP 16 HOURS OF INTENSE WORKING with no flexibility or breather whatsoever in the day. Sometimes, i skip lunch hoping to gain some time – but most of the time it doesnt help much.
Somehow, working long hours running around in audit but with the flexibility of being able to manage my own time is, surprisingly, a lot less intense and stressful than working from 9am-7pm at my desk on a normal day with a compulsory daily deliverable at the end of each day, nazi bosses, and total rigidness in how i can manage my time.
In audit when i felt stressed, braindead, or absolutely stretched – i could just take a 15min breather downstairs, grab a kopi from ya kun, take a fresh wisp of air outside, and then go back to face reality yet again.
Currently when i feel likewise, the best i can do is grab a free milo from the pantry and walk back to my seat as slowly as i can, which takes 3 mins in total. My 2nd option would be heading to the toilet to splash water on my face, or space out on top of the toilet bowl seat. Its quite sad. And smelly. Sometimes.
They said i can go down for a walk whenever i need to, when i feel saturated or stuck. So i tried. But guess what, while i was downstairs i got an sms from my new colleague at work (who’s currently only source of comfort) in less than 5 mins saying – “where are u… xx was asking where u are and yy said v loudly ‘she go home aredi ah? so early!?”… that was like 7pm. Hello actually i thought we were paid to work from 9am-6pm? How is 7pm “so early”? Ok maybe it was month end… but i didnt just disappear for an hour, i just wanted to grab some food to feed the growling tummy and breath some fresh air.
//shakes head.
So nowadays life at work is just all stress and no fun.
Nothing like what i expected.
Nothing like what i had hoped for.
Even less fun than audit can u believe it!
//sigh.
I can only pray for God to grant me strength to carry on, or perhaps, open another path for me to tread on.
I will be still and know you are God
One of my favourite songs. :)
Still
Words and Music by Reuben Morgan
Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
within your mighty hand
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still, know you are God
Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still, know you are God
I will be still and know you are God
When a sister can make a difference.
♥
So no one told you life was gonna be this way
You jobs a joke, you’re broke, your love life’s DOA.
It’s like you’re always stuck in second gear
And it hasn’t been your day, your week, your month, or even your year but..
I’ll be there for you… When the rain starts to pour
I’ll be there for you… Like I’ve been there before
I’ll be there for you… Cos you’re there for me too…
You’re still in bed at ten
And work began at eight
You’ve burned your breakfast
So far… things are goin’ great
Your mother warned you there’d be days like these
Oh but she didn’t tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees that…
I’ll be there for you… When the rain starts to pour
I’ll be there for you… Like I’ve been there before
I’ll be there for you… Cos you’re there for me too…
No one could ever know me, No one could ever see me
Seems you’re the only one who knows… What it’s like to be me
Someone to face the day with… Make it through all the rest with
Someone I’ll always laugh with
Even at my worst I’m best with you, yeah
It’s like you’re always stuck in second gear
And it hasn’t been your day, your week, your month, or even your year…
I’ll be there for you… When the rain starts to pour
I’ll be there for you… Like I’ve been there before
I’ll be there for you… Cos you’re there for me too.
The Rembrandts – I’ll be there for you.
Ben – Michael Jackson
My favourite song of the week:
Ben, the two of us need look no more
We both found what we were looking for
With a friend to call my own
I’ll never be alone
And you, my friend, will see
You’ve got a friend in me
(you’ve got a friend in me)
Ben, you’re always running here and there
You feel you’re not wanted anywhere
If you ever look behind
And don’t like what you find
There’s one thing you should know
You’ve got a place to go
(you’ve got a place to go)
I used to say “I” and “me”
Now it’s “us”, now it’s “we”
I used to say “I” and “me”
Now it’s “us”, now it’s “we”
Ben, most people would turn you away
I don’t listen to a word they say
They don’t see you as I do
I wish they would try to
I’m sure they’d think again
If they had a friend like Ben
(a friend) Like Ben
(like Ben) Like Ben
Blessed Vocals :)
Susan Boyle takes the crowd at Britain’s got talent last week! What a stunner… This lady has the voice of an angel.. (although i dont know how angels sound like – must be beauuutiful nonetheless!) Listen to the recording she did for a charity CD in 1999… Her vocals are incredible.
Witness the case of Susan Boyle. Boyle, a frumpy looking Scottish woman, gray-haired, soft-spoken, looking like one of your grandma’s Bridge partners, has set the world on fire over the last 72 hours. Boyle took the stage this past Saturday on Britain’s Got Talent to dismissive looks and scoffs from the three-person judging panel (which includes Simon Cowell and Piers Morgan). The crowd murmured, a sea of skeptics, readying themselves for a likely-abysmal performance from a self-delusional joke of a woman. Instead, Susan Boyle lifted hearts, incited tears, and received an almost immediate standing ovation. Cuing the music with a thumbs-up, Susan Boyle commenced an astonishing rendition of “I Dreamed a Dream” from Les Miserables. Boyle’s voice was pure, in control. As I said, pure inspiration. Watch the video below and see for yourself:
- [Buddytv]
Here I am, Lord
Words and Music by Daniel L Schutte
© 1981
Genesis 46:2
“And God spake unto Israel in the visions of the night,
and said, Jacob, Jacob. And he said, Here am I.”
I, the Lord of sea and sky,
I have heard my people cry.
All who dwell in dark and sin,
My hand will save.
- Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.
I, who made the stars of night,
I will make their darkness bright.
Who will bear my light to them?
Whom shall I send?
- Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.
I, the Lord of snow and rain,
I have borne my people’s pain.
I have wept for love of them.
They turn away.
- Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.
I will break their hearts of stone,
Give them hearts for love alone.
I will speak my words to them.
Whom shall I send?
- Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.
I, the Lord of wind and flame,
I will send the poor and lame.
I will set a feast for them.
My hand will save.
- Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.
Finest bread I will provide,
‘Til their hearts be satisfied.
I will give my life to them.
Whom shall I send?
- Chorus
Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.
Pancakes for one
Pancakes for one are always depressing
because having breakfast with you was such fun
Pancakes for one are no fun
Cocktails for one are never enchanting
because having drinks with you was such fun
Cocktails for one are no fun no fun no fun
Standing near the vendor on the platform
waiting for your train
But yet again you’re not on it
and I’m crestfallen holding a drooping flower bouquet
A sundae for one is never delicious
because eating junk food with you was such fun
A sundae for one is no fun
All I’ve left of you is a photograph
which only upsets me
cause I can’t draw your attention
your frozen in time
Pancakes for one are always depressing
because having breakfast with you was such fun
Pancakes for one are no fun
Boston (Ausgustana)
In the light of the sun
Is there anyone
Oh it has begun
Oh dear you look so lost
Eyes are red
And tears are shed
The world you must have crossed
You said
You don’t know me
And you don’t even care
Oh yeah
She said you don’t know me
And you don’t wear my chains
Oh yeah
Yeah
Essential yet appealed
Carry all your thoughts
Across an open field
When flowers gaze at you
They’re not the only ones
Who cry when they see you
You said
You don’t know me
And you don’t even care
Oh yeah
She said you don’t know me
And you don’t wear my chains
Oh yeah
…
Boston
No one knows my name
Yeah
No one knows my name
No one knows my name
Yeah
Boston
No one knows my name
Stolen
We watch the season
Pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend
Of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced
Another sun soaked season fades away
You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart
Invitation only
Grand Farewells
Crush the best one
Of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed
Too early to say goodnight
You have stolen my heart
You have stolen my heart
And from the ball room floor
We are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all
Will sleep well
Sleep Well
Sleep Well
Sleep Well
Sleep Well
. . .
[Dashboard Confessional: Stolen]
Its stuck in my head! :)
永不分離 Forever Shall Be
詞曲 劉榮神John Liu
一步步向前行，踏上婚姻的路途主引領
有信心，有愛心，充滿永遠的盼望主歡心
當你們踏上那紅毯的時候，願主祝福這個婚禮
叫新娘和新郎在眾人面前，兩人融合為一體，永遠不分離
每一天都新鮮，愛情終於有歸宿好甘甜
你的心，我的心，連結在真摯你的愛到永遠
當你們踏上那紅毯的時候，願主祝福這個婚禮
叫新娘和新郎在眾人面前，兩人融合為一體，永遠不分離
Everystep that you take, walking to life’s great union.
God will lead.
Keep your faith, keep your hope, keep your love everlasting
God is pleased.
And as you walk through that wonderful journey,
may God bind you in harmony.
So this man and woman before everybody will enter in one unioty.
forever shall be.
Put your hand in my hand, join our love together in His name.
Build our home, build our lives, build up a strong foundation
let Him guide.
And as you walk through that wonderful journey,
May God bind you in harmony,
so this man and woman before everybody
will enter i one unity. forever shall be.
從今天到明天，一生一世在愛中永不變
手相牽，心相連，表明心意，在主前守諾言
當你們踏上那紅毯的時候，願主祝福這個婚禮
叫新娘和新郎在眾人面前，兩人融合為一體，永遠不分離
永遠不分離
Farewell, Huixian
Friday was huixian’s last day at DT.
Perhaps it was her soft nature, her innocence and how hardworking she was that made her so very endearing… She was well-loved by everyone in the office :) Even though the guys liked to make fun of her every so often, she rarely gets pissed off – i dont think i even saw her infuriate ever, accept at that specific everyone-knows-who.. and even so, it cant be compared as when yours truly fumes. haha.
We took a chill pill on friday and took photos with xianie before she left.
The burst function on my cammie is so fun to play with :D
Snap snap snap snap @ the pantry.
At the dt internal staircase…
xianie, u finally breakfree of the “prison” already… haha
I specifically wana blow this up cos xianie is trying to look sexy in this photo while im looking like a kid who’s just having alot of fun… haha
The guys being uber patronising – waving around like crazy fans while xianie was singing…
Xianie was the star of the night!
Hee liling was just warming up her vocals for the evening while the guys in our room looked on.. we had the milder, less rowdy bunch of guys.. haha.
Room 31!
Darren on top, Sengkeat at the extreme left, HG, simliling, timochua, sarahrahrahrah, khimmy, and meee.
It was a freezer in there! Thats why i was nicely wrapped up in my floral scarf.. haha.
YOU DONT SAY!!!
Its NOT obiang ok. So pretty.
Yogi is damn funny. He makes the kookiest expressions !
Winnie, me and sarahrahrahrah trying to do the 1,2,3,4 but failed terribly!!!
How come…
Ahhh my xianie and me.
:)
W for winnie!
Haha yogibear looks like dracula.
SEE WHAT I MEAN…
hahaha YOGIBEAR is clown.
Eh i was supposed to be in the picture also but timo wanted to zi pai so he totally cut me offfff… haha all the better also cos if not my head will be super biggg.
Everybody!!
less junney :(
Everybody! Everybody! Everybody!
The turnout was pretty good!
Dez has separate vocal chords used for talking and for singing.. haha she sounds different when she sings! Ravern aka brother bird has powerful vocals… he’s the only one i’ve heard so far that has comparable singing power with my gordon!!!
I heard he used to be part of a jam band… cool.
Ahahaa this is super sweet/funny/kookie!!!
Darren ahbengcheow who is super angmohpai – sang “Peng You (Friends)” and Deng li Jun’s “Yue liang dai biao wo de xin” specially for xianie!!! awww…
The people dwindled, but a few of us were going on strong.. haha…
Winnie doesnt count cos she arrived late – straight from work :\ haiz poor girl.
Peak almost over girl jiayou!
See xianie laugh until so happy!
Must have been having alot of fun ehh?? :p
And so we sang and sang, until a couple of us maxed out our vocal chords for the night already.
:D
But it was fun, and a great farewell for xianie me thinks!
Her stint in DT ended with a big fat bang! :)
In the wee morning, xianie and me hopped onto the car and headed for supper… didnt really have dinner so i was craving for some food at 2am in the morning. Unfortunately, not many eateries were open. Fortunately, there was a 24-hour mac’s right at west coast road. And also, i had the luxury of xianie’s company while i devoured my fillet-o-fishy meal.
We took a walk around west coast park and found ourselves unable to enjoy all those playstuff cos we were wearing heels and would sink right into the sand! (DAMN).. so we just contented ourselves on the see-saw for abit.. and then off we went.. sent xianie home and then drove myself back, half alive, but uber duper happy… looking forward to the saturday morning rollerblading session with my CBS bladers…
Thats how life’s supposed to be like. :)
Harder Better Faster Stronger (how apt)
Make sure your sound is turned on!
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Juno cute close-curtain song
You’re a part time lover & a full time friend,
The monkey on ur back is the latest trend,
I dont see what anyone can see, in anyone else – but you…
Here is the church and here is the steeple,
We sure are cute for 2 ugly people,
I dont see what anyone can see, in anyone else – but you….
We both have shiny happy fits of rage,
You want more fans, i want more stage,
I dont see what anyone can see, in anyone else – but you…
You’re always trying to keep it real,
Im in love with how you feel,
I dont see what anyone can see, in anyone else – but you…
I kiss u on the brain in the shadow of a train,
I kiss u all starry-eyed my body swinging side to side
I dont see what anyone can see, in anyone else – but you…
Du dudu du dudu du dudu du du…
Du dudu du dudu du dudu du du…
I dont see what anyone can see, in anyone else -
But you.
Lovely.
I really like this Christian song.
One of my church’s littlings embedded it onto her blog; so after i read her daily entries i’d leave the browser open just so i can hear it repeat over and over again. =) Also got these lyrics from one of her entries! (Thanks wingie :))
Just some life questions worth pondering over :))
在世上有多少欢笑，能使你快乐永久？
试问 – 谁能支配将来，永远不必担忧？
名和利 哪天才足够，能使你满足永久？
试问就算拥有一切，谁能守住眼前的所有？
人世间变幻，无穷变幻,
今朝多少光彩，在明日转眼消逝离开…
不朽的生命永存在，在耶稣基督里面，
在跟随他的人心间。
耶稣 基督 他是永恒的主宰。
:))
I miss you.
Err. This is bad angle for me man. Can see my elephant thighs and penguin blubbers from here. But i love the happy faces in this pic so im putting it up anyways. :)
I’ve always knew that Gordon hates to 应酬，but although he was reluctant, he still decided to come along with me to meet my friends – just so he can protect me i guess. Well I reckon that without him, i might be more carefree while im with them; but after the outing i will dread the necessity to weave through the crowds on my own… Making my way home myself, with no sturdy chest to lean against & chunky arms to form a barricade against those touchy cl people.
I really thank God that he is willing to make the tiny sacrifices just for me. He may not be the sweetest boyfriend around, not like those who’d express their love so evidently with flowers every month or pricey treats on anniversaries.
But i can always feel his love language working its way into my heart through the littlest things such as these. And i really appreciate it sweetie. Thank you so much. :)
This new phase of life
I’ve been living with a shadow overhead,
I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I’ve been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past, I just can’t seem to move on.
I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need em again someday.
I’ve been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind…
All I want to do is find a way back into love…
I can’t make it through without a way back into love.
Oh oh oh
I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs..
I know that it’s out there,
There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere.
I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night.
I could use some direction,
And I’m open to your suggestions…
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can’t make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end.
There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real,
Or if anybody feels the way I feel..
I need inspiration; Not just another negotiation..
All I want to do is find a way back into love..
I can’t make it through without a way back into love..
And if I open my heart to you,
I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I’ll be there for you in the end.
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